Yeah, ok, so it's rubbish.

People are really getting on my wires.

Interpol totally rock.

I'm not in a cynical mood today. Honest. I'm not.

Okay, so maybe a little. It's New Year's Eve today, and I'm moderately to adequately pissed off.

My plans have totally morphed over the past month. First, I was going around Leeds with Pam and Vicki, dressed up as schoolgirls. Then I was spending the night in with Nick. Then I was going to a house party in Manchester with Kamram. Then I was gonna go out with Pam and Vicki again. Then I ran out of money and saw Quinney on Monday night. So Quinney and I decided to stay in at my house, drink copious amounts, and listen to CDs. Then I decided to tell Quinney I still like him on Monday at the pub (story to follow), then he decided to get invited to a party in Loughborough. So, he decides to drop this bombshell last night at the pub, and cancel on me, leaving me to spend tonight alone. He followed me out of the pub apologising and I said I was okay with it. I'm not, obviously, but what else was I supposed to say!?

To be honest he was being a bit of a nob anyway, making little digs about me being bitter about something (I was in a bad mood after work but he was meaning me being turned down by him, idiot.) You would have at least thought he would have had the decency to at least invite me too. Well, it's always at this time of year that you find out who your friends are!

Oh yeah, that story, we basically had liked each other for a year so finally decided to do something about it, went out and had a great night, then he randomly changed his mind (some crazy woman issues from the past kinda thing) and now only wants to be friends. Like, whatever.

Even Nick's invited me to Nottingham! Oh yeah, I broke up with him on Monday and he keeps calling and texting...

Now, I had prospectively arranged for Dan to come over anyway, but I just called him and he sounded like he was about to die, so he's calling back later when he's woken up.

So I can go out, if I can get some money to go out with. I just feel like I have no friends when I obviously do, I just can't see them! This is totally rubbish.

Think I'll borrow money from mum and go with Pam and Vic, but I'll have to get picked up about 11.30 (taxis are expensive to my house, expecially when you have no money), but I'll miss midnight which is rubbish!!!

PANTS!!!

Oh, you totally have to go to Steph's blog...it's at: http://www.livejournal.com/userinfo.bml?user=itty_kitty

Fun fun fun!


After Nick's performance last night, I most certainly consider myself single!! I'm not gonna reply to Nick's calls or texts, not that he's sent me any. What happened last night, you ask?

Nick and I went out with Pam and Lugsy, 2 of my mates from school - we only ever meet up over Xmas fortnight and sometimes summer, so it's a pretty rare occasion and it needs to be embraced - they both have moved to other parts of the country. I didn't have to invite Nick as I was going anyway, but I said I wanted him to meet my long time friends. If it was me in his position, I'd have been kinda honoured and desperate to make a good impression. Like I did when we went out a few weeks ago and he went all jealous. So, all was good, and after getting lost in Leeds trying to find Lugsy, we went to Fruit Cupboard for my mate's club night...

Pam was driving so not drinking, I have a few voddies and orange but not much and stay sober. However, Nick and Lugsy keep buying rounds. I gave Nick a warning not to piss anyone off - now, I'm not being racist in the slightest but this club has a bit of an atmosphere, we were like the only white people in there, and if you don't go there often, you can be started at like a stranger! So yeah, I was worried about Nick because he can argue sometimes and I thought he'd get started on by someone. I've been started on by a guy in there before! It's just a club full of attitude, although it's a good place to hang.

Anyway, so Nick goes to the bar (again) and this guy next to him spills a little bit of champagne on his sleeve, so he starts kicking off. The guy was sorry, you know, and Nick was like 'whatever' so I had to pinch him and prod him to get his attention to drag him away. We bumped into some of my mates, then we were gonna go as Pam and I were tired. So lugsy goes to the loo, then takes so long so we send Nick to find him. They take about 15 mins. Me and Pam get bored, go find them...

....at the bar!

...doing shots! I'd already told Nick he'd had enough and asked him not to have anymore, nicely - I hate drunken people. I would've thought he was trying to make a good impression with my buddies but no. He was wasted.

Anyway, Pam and I bite our tongues and dance and talk for a bit, while those two are doing more shots. Nick starts being a twat prodding me in the side all the time. I ask him to stop saying im not some zoo specimen and he's drunk so giggles like a girl and carries on, driving me to almost hit him in frustration, then he tries to walk, but without the bar to hold him up, falls over.

Then he wonders why I went off to dance and refused to talk to him. Eventually we go and Nick starts asking whats wrong in the car. I tell him to shut up till we get home, and telling him again he's pissed and I dont like it. We get to my house, get inside, he starts acting like I'm in the wrong (Pam was thinking he was really weird) I tell him whats up, and how he's shown me up in front of my mates, and shouldn't he be trying to make a good impression, and he goes 'so what if I want to get drunk on boxing day? He goest to sleep on the floor and I tell him to get a grip and get into bed, so he does. Then we're ok.

We woke up alright, but when I was getting ready for work, I asked him if he was going to apologise for last night and he said 'no'.

What an idiot, I was so embarassed. And in the words of Adrian:

Adrian says:
twat!

I know I can do better, it can't be hard, and it's the second time he's being weird when drunk. If he wanted to get pissed he could've gone out with his mates. He totally ruined my night, I was like babysitting, it was awful, and all he could do was take the piss out of me, you know how wasted people get.

Again, Adrian's mortal wisdom:
Adrian says:
ok, so u have a boyf who smells like a hobo!
Adrian says:
u really can pick them!

So yeah. We now have a man that is surplus to requirements here at dearbarbie.blogspot.com.

OMG! So much else to go on about but I can't! This post is way long already and I'm going out with the lovely Quinney tonight! As friends you understand, but I've wanted more for 18 months :(

I went out with MJ again last Monday. I dressed down more than I should have done, but we went to Norman for Thai Curry, then onto the cinema, to see Bridget Jones 2 (I should've been wary about a man choosing to see this from the start to be honest). A few kisses and cuddles in the cinema, but after, he gets the bus and I call mum for a lift (how childish!!). We get outside the cinema, and we're going to opposite ends of town. He says he's not getting butterflies about me and him, that he's not really into me, and gave me the 'you're a great girl' line. Yeah thanks. I've never had that said to me before.
Then he left me to walk across the city alone at 11.30pm.

Kimmeh x

So this is Christmas...

Still nothing about the job...

Which File Extension are You?

I'm not obsessing with quizzes. I'm not.

OMG, interesting evening yesterday!!

And I still haven't heard about my job. The University/Rolls-Royce have to contact Chinese contact before they can recruit so I guess it will be the middle of next week at the earliest, that I would hear anything.

So, my Thursday night. OMG.
I met Matt in Life Café for what I assumed to be a quiet drink (of mineral water) after work, after already having a drink with the lads from work. I crawled in wasted at some stupid hour of the morning, and turned up for work a lil' tipsy, with a hangover kicking in during the late afternoon! Matt is pretty hot. Good, job, 25 - I like men a few years older than me - has travelled a bit and lived in other countries, reads, likes music, he's generally a nice guy. Okay, he's ace :D:D

After Life, we moved onto North, then Norman, then hit Japanic for some oriental munchies, before heading to the Fab Café xmas party and stuff. Wow, he wants to go out again next week. Maaan, he's ace....!

Nick's being rubbish. He called me yesterday night for about 5 mins and then I called later for about 15. He just doesn't seem arsed, and I was ultimately taken aback when he showed up at my work today - well, it was only to bring something that I left at his place earlier in the week. It's a shame because I had a good few days at his. Ah well.

To add to the confusion, I'm going to now talk about another Nick. There's a guy I work with who's from New Zealand and has been here for about a year. He told me yesterday that he's gonna be spending Xmas alone as his mates are all going home. Think that I'm gonna invite him to my house for Xmas dinner - he can't spend the day alone! I mean, I don't really know him, have worked with him on a part-time basis for a few months and he never comes out with us but I still think it's a nice festive gesture.

Kim x

She's soo hiiiigggghhhh....

I am a Death Chase Rider. I enjoy taking risks, and I get kicks from speed, danger, and death-defying stunts. I drink and drive, I bungee jump, I snowboard, with no regard for my own life, or the lives of those who stand in my way. Trees? I laugh at trees! What Video Game Character Are You?

Hahaha, ah well, I thought it was funny and sounds relatively like me!
Well, I've just had 2 days off work, went to Nottingham on Monday night straight from work, to stay at Nick's for the night - yesterday was spent seeing friends from when I lived in Derby, I met Nick after he finished work, and we ended going back to Nottingham to see his mates, so I stayed again, and just got home earlier. I meant to be productive and look for another job today, but I guess going away for a few days was kinda needed, as I've not got another day off work until Christmas Day, then I have New Year's Eve and New Year's Day off work too...

I'm feeling pretty good about Nick and I at the moment...I was seriously on about breaking it off before I saw him on Monday night, but he had cooked for me, and we just chilled out and watched a film, and I saw him again yesterday night, and we were a bit coupley in front of his friends (don't know how to explain how that's important!) and just chilled again last night. Stuff about him was just bothering me, but after seeing him 'in his own environment' I'm pretty chuffed. I'm glad to be back home as I appreciate my own space, but I dunno, it's good :D:D Man, he also looks really hot in a suit and is well photogenic :D Arm candy-tastic!! :p

The last interview for the China job is tomorrow, so I could find out about my job anytime. They asked for a reference at my work so that's gotta count for something, right?!

Wish me luck!

Kim xx

Well, I had the interview!

Woooo! This is Rob, Mat, and I, last night...

My God! I had the interview to go and teach in China yesterday, at my old University, in Derby. Was completely nervewracking - I had to do a lesson plan for it, in front of a panel of three peopl. I think I did alright if I'm honest, although I probably came across as too confident. Thing is, though, they weren't all that interested in my past experience from a teaching point-of-view; it was more to do with how I have handled cultural change in the past (living in France, transition to English life), how I would cope in numerous scenarios, and that sorta thing. I was in there 45 mins, asked a lot of questions, and went in overprepared probably - I typed up all the questions I wanted to ask! And, how sucky (I can't believe I actually did this...), I took a packet of sweets for the interviewers! As part of my lesson plan, I had to take appropriate examples of materials to interview, and I decided that as part of my lesson I would give English sweets to the students.

Ah well, at least they'll remember me, right?!

Then, last night was a work Xmas party - went to a Malaysian colonian-style restaurant that was uber-nice, then we went to Hogshead to gatecrashe Marks & Spencer's Xmas party as well as whooping them at jenga, then Revolution, then Baja Beach Club. It was totally random, I got so many compliments from all the guys I work with about how I looked - even offering to take my jacket and pull out my chair for me - and Rob wouldn't shut up about how 'stunning' haha, in fact, he joked he was speechless and pretended not to be able to speak!!

And, OMG, Nina, this girl who used to work with us who left, randomly turned up at the restaurant. She's a nice lass and all but I think she's got a few issues. Anyway, we're grooving away in Baja and she's all over Paul, our manager, really grinding at him and he's just so taken aback, then they're dancing then they're kissing!! He has a wife and kids and I bet he'll regret that tomorrow morning!

I also injured myself last night and now have a sprained wrist, rendering me half-useless at work tomorrow!

I find out about the job at the end of next week! So nervous!

Kimmeh xx

It's closer than I thought...

And I'm already getting nervous...


Well, when I called my manager yesterday to ask for time off for my interview, he reminded me that my interview is on Tuesday, not a week on Tuesday, as I originally thought, giving me less than a week - 5 days to be exact - to prepare for the next door opening in the hall that is my life. I have to plan a lesson for my interview in front of a panel, discuss what materials I will use, lesson objectives, assessment, and timescale...so I've been working on ideas for that in order to mentally prepare myself for the interview. I hate interviews...however, the last one I had got me a job that I turned down...that was about 2 months ago :S

Nick came over last night, to see me before he went to Nottingham. Man, the way he's been talking about it, you'd think he was moving to Mars! He came over an hour late, after getting lost. We went to the pub, came back here for a bit, ended up kissing and cuddling, but nothing was discussed about 'us'. I mean, the way we were both talking, we had both assumed we had broken up. He asked if he could stay and I told him no...then he went home because I was tired at about 1.30am. He was on his bike and I woke up about 2.30am to the sound of something being thrown at my window...I looked at my phone to have 6 missed calls from him and put 2 and 2 together to work out he'd got lost on his way home and was gonna give me some excuse to stay over...
In my half-asleep/half-awake state I let him throw more gravel at my window and eventually heard his motorbike roar off into the night.

I later found out he got home at 3.45am after getting stopped by the police!! Oh dear! I texted him earlier after thinking about him for most of the day, asking if we could give stuff a go, and he said he'd call. He did, for a bit, saying that he'd like to try maybe, even though we'd see each other once a week (v. optimistic of him!?) and I'm waiting for him to call me back again which I doubt will happen.

However, I just spoke to the lovely Jason again. We can't remember what each other looks like as we were inebriated when we met on Saturday night, so have e-mailed each other photos, and he wished me good luck for my interview, and said we'd have to go out for a drink soon. :D:D:D Flattery was getting him everywhere.

So nervous about Tuesday! At least there's my work Xmas party to look forward to afterwards!!

Kimmeh xx

P.S. I think I may be addicted to chocolate. I even had it for breakfast today, and have lots of hot chocolate at work. Methinks I will need to haul ass to they gym tomorrow as I've really been slacking recently, and now I'm possibly single again I will need to seriously get sorting it out.